I feel a lot better than I did earlier. It was my sisters birthday and she makes me smile and I love her. Here are some pictures : I also spent a bit of time outside: Feeling much better. -B
today I am not okay in my mind i am unimportant, alone, sad, stupid…. i can see myself hurting myself again… it hasn’t even been a year and i promised i wouldn’t but it calls to me… everything hurts and i am alone i tried to put on makeup, smile a little, take pictures…. but… Continue reading warning: bad day/venting
It’s 4am and here I am writing this on my iPod instead of sleeping. Tuesday was a good day. I spent the day lounging on the couch, drinking tea and watching Making A Murderer. I fell asleep numerous times but that’s okay because my body needed the rest. I eventually made myself dinner and watched… Continue reading Tuesday – a ME day.
Trying my hardest not to apologize for being who and how I am. Knowing that the people who matter know who and how I am. Its really hard. Its hard to not pick myself apart. To not apologize for being paranoid that I’m being needy or annoying. I am so thankful to have friends who… Continue reading Not Apologizing
One bottle of wine, half a mickey of peach shnapps and one cigarette. destructive. a pattern. wishing I had something more. I want to feel something else.. -B