I haven’t been okay for a few days (read “week”). My heart aches on the inside and I feel like no one wants me around. Or I’m unimportant… or whatever… It’s weird being so aware of my own paranoia since I’ve been diagnosed with Borderline. Because I understand that it’s part of that. And that… Continue reading Here I Am: A jumbled mess, but necessary.
Autopilot, that’s a thing right? Last night I fell down a horrible body dysmorphic rabbit hole. I don’t like my face. I don’t understand how I could be pretty one day and absolutely hideous the next. My body is a whole different problem that I’d rather not get into. I spent the night crying and… Continue reading Autopilot
Kesha came out with new music after everything shes been through… Click here This video/song makes me feel so many things. It reminds me of how I felt before escaping my abusive ex, wanting to jump out of moving cars or take my dog and run away. I wasn’t myself. I was depressed, suicidal, repressed.… Continue reading Praying
Today I am sick. I finally made it out of bed completely by like 4pm. I sat myself down at my desktop computer and started organizing my art drawers. I’m taking a break from that right now because while scrolling through facebook I saw a status my aunt had put up of this… Continue reading Just for fun !
It’s late and I don’t have much to say besides : Today was a magnificent day ! I went to a garden centre with my Mama. Here are some pictures: I really love flowers. My Mama bought me two little succulents as an early birthday gift. I could only pot one of them today. I… Continue reading Garden Centre
I feel a lot better than I did earlier. It was my sisters birthday and she makes me smile and I love her. Here are some pictures : I also spent a bit of time outside: Feeling much better. -B
today I am not okay in my mind i am unimportant, alone, sad, stupid…. i can see myself hurting myself again… it hasn’t even been a year and i promised i wouldn’t but it calls to me… everything hurts and i am alone i tried to put on makeup, smile a little, take pictures…. but… Continue reading warning: bad day/venting