Today has been not so great. I thought I would get things done that I’ve been putting off for a while. Those things aren’t getting done so I’m trying to do other things ! One minor inconvenience… as much as I love him. Finn. He’s being a total terror today. I’ve had to stop and… Continue reading Today isn’t over !
I was bullied my entire school years. Every single one of them. Including kindergarten. I became suicidal in fifth grade at the age of 10. Even so far as to try and strangle myself in the middle of a French class… thats a cold hard fact. I was recommended to a children’s/youth mental… Continue reading My mental life… Prompted by #BellLetsTalk
2017. A long year for me, but somehow short in the best parts. Thats how it goes though, I suppose. I would like to use this blog post to review visually as well as in writing what my year consisted of. First, the visual ! Bane.The lone survivor of spawn from BB-8 and Dahlia. She… Continue reading 2017 in Review!
Tonight I went to a family Christmas gathering. Usually at these gatherings I’m absolutely sick with anxiety and fear. I get so into my head that I start crying because all of these negative things are just slamming into my brain. Every year theres a game to be played after dinner and dessert… I usually… Continue reading Family Christmas Gathering
I’ve been sad lately. More deeply altogether I’ve been sad, worried and lonely. But generally I am doing much better than usual. I’ve been sober for about 24 days now and can already feel how much more clear my brain is. I can notify all the different things I’m feeling and work them out for… Continue reading The Sad
I started writing this on Facebook but I figured this would be a better place to write about my process with my DBT therapy book. Four pages written out of notes tonight. All about basic distress tolerance skills. ^_^ I’m learning to ” distract, relax and cope ” in a more healthy way. Two excerpts… Continue reading an update ❤️
I haven’t been okay for a few days (read “week”). My heart aches on the inside and I feel like no one wants me around. Or I’m unimportant… or whatever… It’s weird being so aware of my own paranoia since I’ve been diagnosed with Borderline. Because I understand that it’s part of that. And that… Continue reading Here I Am: A jumbled mess, but necessary.